It is hard to know if a decision is the right one. Some are small such as:
‘Should I wear/buy this dress or that one?’
‘What do I want people in shiny big cities to send me for Christmakah?’
“Should I have really spent my paltry end of year teaching bonus on a Mac or should I instead have invested it for my old age?’ ( I don’t give enough thought to the fact that one day I will be old and unemployable.)
Some are really big such as:
‘ Should we move to Uganda?’
‘Should we take our dog?’
‘Should we adopt Casanova?’
‘Should we buy the Beast?’
‘Should we open a business?’
I feel we have had a significant amount of big decisions to make recently. Far more than we would have if we had taken the other route and continued with our lives and status quo in Montreal, 3 years ago.
So how do we make a decision? Guts mainly? I think if you cannot decide something you need to lie very still and listen. Which voice is louder? The yes or the no side? It may take a long time to tune out the noise and really listen but I do believe this is the only way.
I am tired of the big ones, although they do keep the heart beating and ward off any comforting signs of boredom. It would be perfectly pleasant to chill out for a while. However, there are more coming; and they do not involve dresses or shoes, sadly.
On a happier note, I have a few small and fun little conundrums to solve. I am compiling my Xmas list of what I want friendly and cheerful bestowers of goodie boxes to send. It is an interesting challenge. The items must weigh next to nothing and be small. They have to be quite inexpensive. ( Despite jewels fitting into category #1, they get swiped off the list with #2. ).
So: small, light and cheap.
Thus far I have got as far as lip gloss and Yogi tea bags.
The mind hums.